Half of me :'(

I'm speechless man , Got a lot to express but none want to come out ! It can only keep hereeeee ---> the deepest part in my heart . I knew when it will come out. After the SPM. Instead of say no words, i could only crying and struggling still i have chance. Chance that is come along wif seduces and challenges. Urghhhhh, badd-ist please stay far far away from me ! Hope everythg is goin to be fine :')